A poem that I wrote in the hospital

Vanishing Particles

Watch me as I drift away,
I'm floating in the galaxy.
Stars for eyes,
Planets for brains,
enigmas for hair,
I'm so far gone.

Watch me as I break,
I'm crushed into dust,
pinpricks of blood as I dance
I'm laughing at pain,
Peals of fullness,
I'm so miserable.

Watch me as I imitate,
I'm your very best puppet,
extremities clicking together as I put on a show.
See how my smile is a millisecond off?
I'm not real.

Watch me as I slit my wrists,
I'm too tired,
Pretty red streams running away from me,
Drops of bile,
Happy thoughts,
I'm serene at last.