Of My Day

I finished my coffee painting this morning, and drank a bit of it. :)  Then Melinda and I went to Kohls and "saved money".  It's always saved money never spent money.  We "'saved" on a pair of short black boots and a white lacy dress.  Altogether they were $8.  I think I'm going to wear the dress for my birthday with these stack heeled peep toe laced up sandals I have, or possibly my awesome nautical heels (also peep toed).  For my birthday my guests are all wearing costumes to fit the identities that I secretly assigned to them.  I will probably be doing their makeup.

Emily and I are hanging out which is ALWAYS fun! :) We are working on her outfit for the party. She will be wearing my bustier style shirt, combat boots, mel's black flowy skirt, doing her hair ,makeup, wearing these sleeves she and I are making, and I made her an accessory that is AWESOME!  Not to give away her outfit, let's just say there's a cat hair core! :)

We are also snacking on Twizzlers and indulging in our usual strange conversation patterns.  She is my friend here who speaks "Kumari".  In art, clothing, and just the usual random references.  I love Em :) <3.

We also sat on a bridge and be glad that I resisted the urge to jump off. :) It was fun to climb up on the rails and dangle our feet.  Oh and I haven't cut in ages (I think the increased antidepressant dose may be working) Melinda agreed to give me a prize every time I make it thirty days without cutting.  So that is fun, maybe I can use this to acquire shiny new clothing :)

Now this sounds like self indulgent blathering.  I shall now try to relate this back to my disease.  Let's just say that BPD is a bitch, but having projects to work on and friends to hangout with make it much better  I've been feeling better since I've been able to do more artwork.  It makes me miss cutting a bit less. I actually really really, want to cut, I still have trouble not secretting away sharp objects.  But I'm so close to thirty days, and I really want a new pair of shoes or something. :)

Oh, funny Trevor story, He says that people are going to start thinking he is a klepto, because he was at work last week and he caught himself automatically putting scissors in his pocket.  So see sharp object gathering is contagious.

Anyway, I'm sure I'll have a down swing for you guys and be able to write dark, moody stuff later. :)